Hospitals and Bookstores

Submitted by no_lullabies on Wed, 03/03/2010 - 20:49.

Shoshannah - soft

Today, I went to see my father with Ian. I hadn't really thought it through at first, but it was a good thing Ian was there. I think he's the only reason my father didn't drag me home right away. I tried to tell him that I wasn't coming back, that I needed to be at the Drake, that I needed to be anywhere but that house, but at first he wasn't listening. It took Ian's assurance that I was perfectly safe there in order to persuade my father to let me stay. I told him I was going right out after this talk with him to start searching for jobs again and he seemed pleased, but still worried.

I understand that he just wants the best for me and I love him for that...but he just doesn't get it that I want different things than he wants for me. Maybe it'll all make sense to him soon, but at least we ended on a good note. He says he's still worried, but glad to know where I am. I gave him the number to the phone in my room in case he wanted to call and he insisted that if he agreed to let me stay there, I had to at least come home and talk to Mother about me moving out with his blessing. She'll follow along with anything Father says so I'm hoping it'll work out all right.

But now that I think about it, I wonder if it was really Ian's assurance that I was safe or more that Ian was there that helped Father say yes. There was something in his eyes when he saw Ian, like he'd recognized him from somewhere. I was probably looking too hard, but Father seemed...I'm not sure I can actually place what he looked like when he saw Ian, but with Ian's personal promise that he was going to look after me, I don't think my father had much else he could say.

And we didn't only stop to see my father. Ian went with me. He said it might be helpful for me to put him down as a reference anywhere that might be hiring. I'm sure being able to put down his name and Cheyenne for a reference helped, because at first the man who owned the store seemed leery, but after looking at my two references, he said I could come in tomorrow for a trial day on the job!

This is going to work, I just know it is!

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